Pushing Through the Insanity

Look! I’m in a hole.

Posted on February 19, 2010 by Critter in Journal, Off Topic

To say that things have been pretty shitty lately would definitely be an understatement. Seven months of unemployment in addition to a few personal issues  have definitely taken a toll on my mindset, my body, just about every aspect of everything.

I’ve watched my weight slowly and steadily climb. It’s disgusting to me, and the sad thing about it; I don’t even care. My sleep patterns are still shit. I sleep 2 or 3 hours at a time. And when I am hungry at 1am. I just tell myself I really don’t care, as I push food down my gob.

I was able to finally land a job a few weeks ago. It has definitely done wonders for my mental health. Getting out of the house daily, is definitely helping to keep me sane. We also got a little lab puppy, Onyx, which helps my sanity when the boys are not there. My son’s cat, however, is not a fan of the dog and constantly pushes it around. I am sure things will get interesting when the pup is bigger than the cat.

Anyway… I cannot say for sure that I am back. Ha! You see how well that worked out in my last video, right? But I believe I am finally climbing out of this hole that I have been in for a while.

I want the old me back, in body and spirit. I’ll get there. Maybe not as fast as I would like, but I will.